5/26/05

5/26/05

Well, we’ve missed our flight. I very nearly had a panic attack when I realized we weren’t going to make it…quick breathing, dizziness, everything. We’re now waiting to see if we can board a plane as an extra (we’re on “stand-by”), and we’re so stressed and shaken that we haven’t hardly spoken a word. Ruby blames herself, but really it just happened…our bad luck. So I hope she doesn’t feel too guilty, because really, we didn’t know.

-----> 3:46. In another waiting room, waiting to see if we can get on a different plane. I feel really dizzy for some reason, I be I’m drunk off the adrenaline rush and stress of missing the plane. Either that or Rodrigo put something in my water when Ruby and I went back to the millennium lodge this morning. He was still trying to make out on me, even sober, and he gave me his email, with “love you” written on the page. I didn’t run into Calvin, which is probably best because Rodrigo was almost too much to handle. I was almost too late pushing him away, he practically licked my nose. I’m not sure what I’ll do if we have to stay there tonight…I’ll have to get real bitchy. To be honest, it’ll be a relief to leave these European boys behind.

-----> 6:01. well, our attempt at boarding 2 different planes was unsuccessful. We’re now on the incredibly long (as we did not know before) train ride back to Kensal Green to stay at the hostel. *sigh* I’m dizzy still, and I think it might be from exhaustion. I’m really ready to go home.

Floodlight. Remember that, you may take photography courses in London someday. The photographer I met on the Underground said that photography is pretty accessible for anyone that wants, but what makes good photography is someone who pushes the boundaries, and wants to change things. It was Ruby who told me about ethos, pathos, and agape. Ethos and pathos refers to a friendship-type relationship or a physical/sexual relationship (I don’t remember which is which) but agape refers to someone who always looks to change the relationship for the better.